If you’re down and confused, and you don’t
remember who you’re talkin’ to. Concentration slip
away, ‘cause your baby is so far away.
Well there’s a rose in the fisted glove and the eagle
flies with the dove, and if you can’t be with the one you love,
honey, love the one you’re with.
~Stephen Stills, Love the One You’re With~
When I popped over to Zil's blog and saw this quote at the top I knew it was time. This song has been in my head for about two weeks. I've talked about it to several friends, and my husband. I've been thinking I should post about it. So here it is.
If you can't be with the one you love, honey, love the one you're with.
Not recommended marriage advice, I don't think. That's not what this is about.
Except maybe it is good advice for me, for my life right now.
I look around and am dissatisfied with my life. My house is a constant mess. I'm unhappy with how it is decorated. I'm embarrassed to have people over. I am unhappy with my weight. With my sloppy clothes. With the amount of yelling I do at my kids (too much) and the amount of time I spend doing things my toddler would love (too little)
So I sit and think about how much it stinks. I am pretty much in a constant state of either sadness or anger.
And I remember I had once heard this advice. If you are not ok, fake it. Fake it and pretty soon you will be ok.
Not quite sure how that works. Has anyone had that work for them? I'd be interested to hear.
Instead, this line keeps going through my head. Only I'm changing one word when I sing it to myself
If you can't be with the LIFE you love, honey, love the LIFE you're with.
Instead of wishing my life was different I need to learn to love the life I have. I love the kids I have, the husband I have. I love that I have a house. I love a lot about it.
And I think I need to start doing it better. If I am unhappy with it, I need to do it better. Do my job better. My job of being Emily.
Some of you may or may not know I have my daycare license. Only, previously I have only done care for before and after school kids. Ages 5+. That is the best of both worlds. Not a ton of money, but I get my days free. Only, I don't have anyone enrolled right now. With this economy people are not paying for daycare for kids that are old enough to stay home by themselves.
And I had a call this week to watch 2 kids- a 2 year old and a 6 week old. Uh oh.
See my last post about holding other people's babies
And the thought comes to my head.
If you can't be with the life you love, honey, love the life you're with.
I have been thinking in this state of economy I need to have much more of a bank account buffer than I currently have. My emergency account right now is just about enough to take us all out for one chocolate overload trip to Dairy Queen.
And I am gearing up. I need to do my life better. I give myself a mental smack in the head and tell myself to get going.
If I'm going to do daycare, let's do it. And do it well.
I'll let you know how it goes.