Tuesday, April 14, 2009

The Little Voice In My Head

Do you ever notice that you talk to yourself in a way you would never in real life talk to someone else? I always seem to have this negative self talk going on in my head. And then it is like I am looking for situations to reinforce these opinions.

For example! The only clean towel this morning was a TeenAge Mutant Ninja Turtles beach towel- so that is what I used after my shower. Reinforcing the fact that ONE, I am a terrible housekeeper to not have clean towels, and TWO, I am ginormous as a whale to require a beach towel to dry off with rather than a regular sized bath towel.

And ok, ok. I'm a liar as well. It wasn't just this morning. I have been using this TMNT beach towel for 3 days so far. It has holes in it and at one point I'm pretty sure my husband used it in some sort of handyman project because it has some sort of crusty expanding foam stuck on it so while the towel itself is clean it is kind of crunchy and scratchy.

Why do I treat myself like this? I deserve better! I'm a valuable human being, even if the house elves are behind on the laundry.

I'm going to get up this minute and go start the washing machine.

peace!
emily

4 comments:

angie said...

Oh, Emily, I definitely can relate, as I contemplate my laundry which is sitting wet in the washing machine from yesterday. I think you should do yourself one better and order one of these bath sheets from Restoration Hardware. http://www.restorationhardware.com/rh/catalog/product/product.jsp?productId=prod1262007&navAction=jump&navCount=1

One that is just yours. No one else is allowed to use it. You wash it and bring it right back to the hook. A beautiful lush bath sheet in a decadent color that matches nothing but your mood. (I received one as a gift when I was in late pregnancy, and wowee, it fit over my huge belly.) Sending much love.

Kara aka Mother Henna said...

Yes, yes, it was exactly this voice that set me on my hero's journey path, Em!

http://motherhenna.blogspot.com/2007/11/writing-your-own-life.htmlAngie, I looooove those Restoration Hardware bath sheets! :)

Be gentle with you!
miracles,
k-

Vickie said...

Me too! I think my messy house is the reason why my life seems so out of sorts! Its like a feng shui kind of thing:)

Yaya said...

Hope you got some laundry done!!