Ever since I woke up this morning I keep feeling like I need to say this:
It gets easier. For those of you in the early days I know it seems that it will never get 'better'. I will just tell you that it will get 'easier'. It takes time, and is kind of a two-steps-forward-one (or two or three)-steps back, but it does get easier. At first every day is a bad day. And then eventually, you will realize that this last hour was maybe not as bad as the one before it. And someday, you will realize that this whole day was kind of ok. You will still have bad days, but they get further between.
Someone explained it to me once in this way-
Grief is like a big boulder that crushes you. As time goes on you can chip away at it bit by bit until you can carry it with you.
You will never forget your baby. But the pain will change into something softer, not as stabbing, not as overwhelming.
I promise- it gets easier.
I hope today is gentle for you. peace- emily